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Monday, 30 March 2009

  • I once wrote:
    As I get older, the events that inspire me to write are not too different from my former years. One aspect that makes it more difficult however is that I'm older now; and I see the accumulation of my experiences has given me depth; and herein lies the difficulty of writing. It takes a lot more introspection, explanation and push for me to be wowed. And as a result a lot more difficult to translate into a cohesive story for this. But I will try harder :)

    So I've finally found one to cover:
    One with depth, sincerity and a REFRESHING gusto of life. One that INSPIRES me to get off my little perch and explore/expand the boundaries of my own perspectives/thoughts. To be a better person and perhaps one of the most difficult tasks: allowing me to drown in the human experience...which is both humbling and awe inspiring all at once.

    I've discovered a well of positive opportunists :) One that makes ME a better person.
    How did I manage this?! AHHHHHHHHhhh I'm kinda going crazy ;)
    And now that I've located one of those hard to find sources of inspiration, its bubbling all over the place and i want to show everyone :D
  • Its been FAAAAAAAR too long since I've given much thought about an entry as I've been soooo busy trying to formulate the new chapter I went off about in September. So here we are...a few months later but worlds away. I've made me happy as a clam once again...I've pedeteniously paved a pretty cool path, i think?! in the various aspects of my life personally and hopefully soon but not too soon professionally. Despite a few complaints, I loved every moment of my unemployment break with pictures and all!! :D To be continued.......

    On another note....
    I can't sleep/eat/focus. Its physically debilitating and I can't stop hearing these lyrics playing in my head:

    Once again, now where do I start, dear love
    Dumb struck with the pure luck to find you here
    Every morn' I awake from a cavernous night,
    Sometimes still pondering the previous plight,
    Seems life done changed long time no speak,
    Nowadays I often forget the day of the week
    Taking it by stride if you know what I mean,
    No harm done, no offense taken by me
    So let's rap, we'll catch up to par, what's the haps?
    Perhaps we're even closer now after all things considered on this side of the planet,
    Couldn't pick a better time even if we planned it!
    To come clean and candid if I have to
    Oh what I wouldn't trade for your laughter
    Sweet and sour spice in my poetry pot melting,
    Even better than the real thing!

    It's like the God in me saw the Devil in you
    I wanted to break myself in the worst way when I met you
    Who would have thought, conversate by the river, celebrate birth,
    Sit and delivered the lines that would prove to be the seeds of trust
    Unsigned, yeah but destined to grow with sunshine
    Self-assigned task piled on the desk of good works,
    Knowing hardship appreciate the best of both worlds!

    C'est la vie, as they say L.O.V.E evidently, see every song has a sequel
    Never same, everything but the name, all fresh just like back then, how we do everyday
    C'est la vie, as they say L.O.V.E eloquently, see dream has a part two
    Never same, you got to keep it tight, all fresh just like back then, now hear me out...

    Once together, now where do we go, dear divine
    I pray that you keep watching over us,
    From the heavens where light is the nucleus
    To this space filled with darkness and negative matter
    Anti-gravity pull is what I would rather feel when I leave this shell eventually
    Ties to the mother earth ground me mentally,
    Real vibes will keep me alive spiritually
    Imagination brings bliss at no cost, when I blink blink I receive at no loss
    Victory comes in small packages like a leaf of an olive tree brought back by a dove
    From above, then I'm gonna rhyme love,
    Well you saw that one coming ever since the beginning of the end
    Well anyways, I am not a perfect being, yes I am a man full of sin
    It's like the Devil in me saw the God in you,
    You epitomize the etymology of enthusiasm!
    Look it, up there lies the clouds that form the rain
    That came from the ocean that flowed from the river
    I'm a believer, firm with the first words, lyrical transceiver of our ancient roots
    (Science + Arts) * Faith / # of our Ethnic Race!
    Let me mention what I've been thinking
    How to save the children, when the ship is sinking
    So I'm singing, no lip syncing to slogans,
    Political hooligans with tanks, missiles and guns!
    Everything is relative when it's all in the family of man,
    Understand the time has finally come to realize the great power of 1,
    All formulas equalize under the Sun, Amen!


    The rhymes will heal 'cause I believe in music,
    In times of need I won't be leaving you sick
    The beat plus the melody's the recipe,
    Your vibe surely brings out the best in me!
    The rhymes will heal 'cause I believe in music,
    In times of need I won't be leaving you sick
    The beat plus the melody's the recipe,
    All good souls lost may they rest in peace!
    (repeat)
    Hiphop worldwide we got to live in peace, like that!
    [ Luv (sic) Pt.2 Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

Thursday, 18 September 2008

  • Despite being here, there and everywhere else,
    I feel like I've been walking around in circles for the past year; 
    laying blame to getting older, but that was not it-
    I've been getting old my entire life.
    It was staring me right in the face without me ever realizing it.
    I became what I should NOT have been with all the logical reasons.
    What's the point of striving towards a future without moving in the present
    Maybe later, but for now it's time to make an appeal for the life I can lead.

Monday, 15 September 2008

  • 1. If you can't argue principle, argue tactics ---> Something new I am going to employ!
    2. Appearance matters, so remember to smile
    3. Live above the Circumstances
    4. Courage isn't the absence of fear
    5.知己知比， 百戰百勝 
    6. Comfort is my motor kill...

  • I'm here and there, but not really ANYWHERE

    I've said this a million times over and I believe its time to stop I've lived the charmed life of a 22 year old for far too long hehehe . I think the path has finally run its course and I FINALLY reached the juncture of MUCH needed change. It took me 6, almost 7 years to wholly take in and exploit EVERY fantasy, want and need of a twenty-something and I can declare that I've experienced all that I wanted to the utmost degree in: schooling, traveling, love.... and its time I move on. Time to start building a new set of expectations and standards that I as a 28 year old will find acceptable. It's time to establish the outline of my next chapter so it can be sooner enjoyed.

    For starters, I KNOW I definitely don't want anymore flip-flop and backpack days! No more student life, I definitely milked it in undergrad and grad school so time to acquire a profession   Time to have my go at the next phase because I want more. Its not necessarily the start of another "book" but definitely the start of another chapter. The transition phase however, is always a bit sticky. Lots of things on my plate and on my mind....but at least I have an inkling of whats to come and my capacity to acquire what will make me happy.   

    Granted, its always hard to let go of the familiar haunts I've grown accustomed to, but to BUILD a new set of desires and standards is the only possible way for me to maintain the "WoW!" feeling I love ZINGING inside of me. The rush has been ebbing for the last year or so. I honestly thought my world tour would have given me that ZING, but the only thing I discovered out there was my jaded self. Sad sad sad. I went further and had more hopes of finding that ZING elsewhere, but it kinda escaped me and I didn't know why. Now I do and its simply cos I outgrew this phase of me. I outgrew the satisfactions of my early 20 somethings in ALL aspects of life. 

    So back to the drawing board to light a new fire that will motivate me to get up and seize the day. Without the "WoW" factor I'm no good and I'm not ME.

    Secondly- I definitely dress the same and look the same, insert random school, whatever far flung place, same interests and same people. Definitely need to exit my little circle. Albeit a really nice circle, I think I can find more, LIVE with more gusto if not not simply be more styley hehee

    So in sum I think this was the graduation I was working on all these years. I've obtained everything I've wanted from that period and I've satisfied my own needs/goals. Now I CAN strive for a new set of standards and goals to bring me back home to ME.